PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!!! WHO can help me??? PLEASSE PLEASE HELP. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE!!!?

well this is the situatio:


i LIVE IN ENGLAND


i had a VERY bad time at primary school ad was bullied.


i then wet to high school and missed about 6 months out of each year . he teachers must have noticed and yet they assumed 9i am asumig) that they must have assumed i was catchig up i my spare time...ad i wasn't . thy did't eve bother puttig me i all the lower groups. all my parets seemded bothered about was them selves gettig in trouble. so at the ed of this year they set me to a private all-girls school ad the teachers did't even know that i was 2 years behind. i quit at the end of year as i could't cope. i thehn had 3 measly hours of home education on the LEA and i was forced to do work that was too hard ad learn myself out of books ad they didn't eve check that i was 3 years behid. also one of the coditios of that tuitio wa sthat ou had to be seeking cousellig. i HAD BEENSEVERELY DEPRESSED FOR YEARS SINCE I STARTED HIGH SCHOOL AS MY GRADMA WHO LOOOKED AFTER ME DIED AND I WAS QUITTING SCHOOL AD STAYIG AT HOME WATCHING VIDEOSMY GRADMA GOT ME..AD BOOKS AD RIDIG ONCE A WEEK AS I ASSOCIATED IT WITH HER AD I WAS SEVERELY DEPRESSED AD I DO MEAN SEVERELY.


AD i had a private art tutor who thought i was ok ad up todate with the work and doung a levels next ad i din't even kow what an a level was an i cheatedi 2 of the exams ad so later rippped my gcse certificate up as i kew i was no grades ad then i am NOW 19 YEARS OLD AD HAVE BEEN SENDING OFF FOR COLLEGE PROSPECTUSES FOR 3 YEARS AND I DO'T KNOW WHAT TO DO COS I COULD'T EVE GET A JOB WORKING IN A SHOP COS I DOT' EVEN KOW WHAT A CV IS NOR HOW TO APLY FOR A JOB OR WHAT I'D DO WITH THE MONEY OR AYTHING...AND I AM TERRIFIED I'M GOIG MAD BECAUSE


I HAVE BEEN NOT GROWIG UP..I HAVE BEEN STUCK AT AGE 11 INSIDE MY HAED..WATCHIG OLD CGILDREN'S FILMS/VIDEOS FOR YEARS AD YEARS AND NOT MOVING FORWARDS MENATLLY AND I WAS NOT THIKING ABOUT THE FUTURE AS I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN AN I WAS GOIG OVER AD OVER AND OVER AND OVER THE PAST ALL OF THE TIME AND I WAS STAYING AT AGE 11 MENTALLY . ALSO MY MUM BULLIES ME AND I HAV EBEEN SCARED OF HER BUT THAT'S OT MY PROBLEM...MY PROBLEM IS I'M 19 AD I THIK I'M GOIG MAD AND I AM STILL STUCK AT AGE 11 AD I ALWAYS ITEDED TO GOBACK TOS SCJOOL BUT I EVER DID AD NOOE


WAS THERE FOR ME..NO FRIEDS OR REALATVES ..OOE...AD MY OAREETS NEVER GOT ME HELP FOR MY SCHOOL PHOBIA NOR ATI-DEPRESSANTS..IN FACT MY MOTHER ACTUALLY ENCOUTRAGED ME OT TO GO ON THEM. I'M 19 NOW(I HAVE BEEN IN A RIGHT STATE FOR YMOTHS) AND I DO'T KNOW ANY ORMAL STUFF FOR PEOPLE MY AGE LIKE WHY PEOPLE DRIK ALCOHOL,HOE TO US E A BUS, I HAVE BEEN VERY UWELL WITH DEPRESSIO FOR YEARS AD I HAVE O EDUCATION AD I HAVE'T MET AYOE AD WAS I THE HOUSE AD IT WAS LIKE TIME STPPED STILL.


WHO CA HELP ME? EVE WORSE WHE I WAS HAVING HOME EDUCATION ONE OF THE RULES WAS THAT YOU HAD TO BE SEEKIG HELP . I WAS SENT TO A COUNSELLORAD I WAS SO IL BACK THE ICOULDN'T BARE TO FACE IT ALL SO PRETEDED I WAS OK AD SHE SAW OTHING WROG AND SHE GOT A COMPLETELY FALSE IDEA OF ALL MY PROBLEMS AD ALL THE OTES ON ME ARE OW COMPLETELY WRONG/SO WRONG. I AM 19 NOW AD SO SCARED...I CAN SEE NO WAY OUT. WHO CA HELP ME? I DO'T SEE WHO CAN ? PEOPLE DON'T BELIVE ME AS WELL...BUT IT'S ALL TRUE I SWEAR ON MY LIFE. I do't kow where i am in time ad my parets lie to people saying i'm ok whe i'm ot just so they do't get i trouble. ad i'm so scared i'm goig mad cos i am still stuck back at age 11. i foud a course for people with no GCSEs but have a problem in that ok so the peopl o it have no GCSEs but they have still bee MOVING FORWARDS MENTALLY AD BEE WELL AD WITH IT FOR YEARS AND YEARS. i have no life experiece...i can't relate to them or how they got there. i am still 11 i my head stuck in a 19 year olds body. i mea ok so they got o GCSE but they'll still have piced stuff up fro other about them...they'll have moved in to the future ad be able to see further ahead tha i can ad will know stuff like how to lok after themselves, why people take drugs, what alsohol is, why people live i the houses they do, how the world works etc..etc..i have bee ill for years ad years ad yeaes. plus I'm actually 19 ad people have rubbed it in and in that i'm 19 ad thry'll be 16 ad it doea't match up with birth dates ad tring to match the past up with there's and stuff. imagone this..i walk ito the room and what do i say to people ..hat do i say/ i can't match up with them? i ahven't moved into the futuure and i don't kow who i am anymore. like i could't eve learn to drive cos i do't really understad whhere people go..i'd have owhere to go . i see it from back 7 years ago...and it feels so wrong. ALSO THERE'S NOONE HERE TO TALK TO OR BE THERE FOR ME...I SAID TO MUMI FELT LIKE I WAS GOIG MAD AD SHE DID'T CARE AD LEFT ME TO SUFFER ALONE AND I'M SCARED. I AM 19 STUCK BACK 7 YEARS AGO AD I AM COMPLETELY ALOE. WHO CAN HELP ME? WHAT CA ANYDOCTOR POSSIBLY DO? THEY CAN'T PUT THE PAST 7 YEARS BACK ITO MY HEADOW CAN THEY? I HAVEN'T MOVED FORWARDS NORMALLY. i CA'T SEE AY WAY OUT. i WILL BE STUCK HERE FOREVERE AD GO EVE MADDER AD THEN WHEN MY PARENTS IE I'LL STARVE TO DEATH. PLEAZSE TAKE ME SERIOUSLE PLEASE. I AM BEING SERIOUS HERE. I COULD'T EVE GET THE MOST BASIC OF JOBS AD I CA'T MATCH UP WITH WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE I TIME . I MEAN WHAT HAVE ALL THE OTHERS BEENTHROUGH? I DO'T KNOW...I WAS LIVIG I THE PAST..STAYIG STILL LIKE I HAVE BEN BOR ATA AGE 19 OR LIKE I WET TO SLEEP AT AGE 11 ANDHAVE WOKEN UP AT AGE 19. I'M SCARED . REALLY SCARED. DOCTORS DEAL WITH PEOPLE WITH MENATL ILLESS...LIKE SEEING VISIONS.HEARIN STFF ETC....I DON'T HAVE THAT OR ANYTHIG. I AM ON ANTI-DEPRESSATS SO OT EVE DEPRESSED AYMORE...THEY'VE MADE ME WAKE UP AND MY PRBLEM IS THAT I HAVE O PAST..I DN'T


KOW WHERE I AM IN TIME AND IT'S LIKE I'VE GONE INTO THE FUTURE AD YOU MUST BELIVE ME IT'S TRUE..I MEAN I HAVEN'T BEEN MOVING FORWARD. WHAT CA AY DOCTOR POSSIBLY DO? THEY CANOT RECREATE MY PAST. WHO CA HELP ME? I CA SEE O WAY OUT? i'll ever get a job, get married a dhave children ad i can't live like this. i eed help but i don't see who ca...some eve thik i'm lyig as it souds so well abormal. what ca i do? i am so aloe ad i ca't cope ad i DO'T WANT TO DIE ad be like this. i don't kow what to do. i don't know anything...like what abank account is...why people drive or aythig...i should have goe to school but i did't . eho ca help me. i hate being 19 cos all people say is your a adult ahd i'm ot i'm a child stuck atage 11 i an adults body and i have no future. wHO CANHELP ME???i don't know wher ei am i time..like i don't even kow (sorry to say this i kno it aint very nice but well i do't kow stuff like why people livehouses,wy people drink alocohol, what sex is, what drugs are, what the laws are ad how they apply to us ad people s age ad stuff ad what others i duifreret coutirs live thier lives. i do't really understad the gvernment at all..ad i do't know stuff..just life stuff. i'm ot worried about the fact i have no GCSEs it's not that i'm


worried about it's the fcat i haven't been with people at all ad have't growj up and i'm surprisec i've bee able to preseve my brain at age 11 ...i mean why didn't i otice before...how did i manege this? i don't know how but i did ad ow i'm i a real bad way. what can i do? i'm 19 have ever had a job ad am stuck back 7 years ago still waiting to go back to school.

PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!!! WHO can help me??? PLEASSE PLEASE HELP. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE!!!?
OK first I stop reading before the end of the third sentence...


Second no one's childhood is perfect we were all picked on, get over it and grow up...


For god sake will you learn what the hell a spell checker is???
Reply:Find a good church and get some Christian counselling. You've been told that because you're not the smartest you're not worth as much. That's not true. Go to church. Get Christian counsel, Read your Bible and learn who you are in Gods eyes and hang on to that. Good luck, and God Bless!
Reply:Whoa whoa whoa!! Back up for just a minute. Look at wht you are telling yourself. You're sending out bad energy to the universe, and bad energy attracts more bad energy. For just a moment, just once, say to yourself "I am 19 years old. I'm young-at-heart- and I'm proud."


Next, I suggest you get a tutor. Sylvan Education has some really good tutors! I don't tknow if they are in England or not, they are very good, but you're going to have to open yourself, and stop saying that you are "only 11", becaue you're not. You're tricking yourself into thinking that you are. No offence or anything, i don't know you personally, you are taking a strangers advice, therefor, you're going to get a stranger's answer.


You shouldn't have skipped out on school so much during your pre-teen and teen years, that's the most important part of your life. Don't tell yourself "It was all my fault" DONT. I was NOT all your fault! Didn't your parents make you go to school?? It's not a child's job to go to school everyday, it's the Parent's job to MAKE SURE that their child gets an education!


You are already a smart girl for knowing that you have a minor problem with your knowlege, but stop telling yourself how terrible you are, becuz you're not terrible!





Here are a few things you should do:


Get a Tutor, and be VERY open to his/her views


Continue counseling it will help a lot.





I'm sorry you are facing these troubles, and I hope that I helped, but not knowing you in person, I'm not sure what to say. I hope this helped.
Reply:Whew! Seems you have a lot of problems. But as far as your education why not try a home course? I took a home course and it really helped me. With a home course you study at your own rate and so you can take your time. Find one that's not expensive and get started. Since I've never been to England go to a local school and ask a teacher how you can get a high school diploma. Here in the US there's a test that can be taked tp earn a diploma.
Reply:wow, you have had a really hard life, maybe you should ask God to help you with your personal problems. or convert to Christainaty.
Reply:Sweetheart. Please please go to a therapist. You need to tell him/her every thing you have written here.





You get experience in all the things you are questioning by going out into the world and learning it.





I think you are having a problem with your self esteem and a therapist can help you with this too.





Good luck.
Reply:Sorry..
Reply:You need a therapist. No one in here is going to be able to help you.
Reply:The only person who can really help you is you. You have been given private tutoring and education and it hasn't helped. That is because you do not want it to help. You need to get yourself a job, and I mean any job. Working at MacDonald's or the local fruit shop or whatever. If not a job then you need to volunteer your time to whatever - helping at a retirement village. Anything at all as long as you are putting yourself out into the community. Once you feel good about whatever you are doing then you can move onto other things such as getting a better education. Sitting at home watching movies will only make you more depressed. The sooner you stop blaming your parents or the government or even the schools the sooner you will be able to move forward and do something for yourself. It is time for you to grow up and get on with your life
Reply:Dude chill, you're question is way too long. You would be surprised at how many people are 7 years behind. I was behind. You just sign up for classes at a community college they test you, and set you up for remedial classes. If you're in school a couple extra years catching up it's cool. Alot of people don't start going to college until they are in their thirties. Damn. You're stressing me out you were stressing so bad.
Reply:I read the first part of your story...


I couldnt go on...


BUT... why don't you just go to the library and rent a GED preperation book... the librarian can help you find the best one...


then once ur done studyn'...


go and take the test...


then vuwallah you've got urself a high-school equivilent.


But it's not that easy.. just sit ur butt down and study the ONE book.


IT is not that hard and there are online tutors...


p.s. start somewhere... get a job... anywhere.... even McDonald's if it has to be the case!!!
Reply:Oh my God, I feel so bad for you that I want to just cry! I don;t think I can personally help, but I really think you need to go talk OPENLY with a therapist. If you are too afraid to say aloud what you just openly told thousands of people, then maybe you could print what you just wrote and take it to the therapist? Sweetie, you have been protected TOO long by your family, and what you need is for them to pay attention and wake up. If it is because they are embarassed by your situation, then THEY need to go to counseling with you! If you want someone to just talk to, feel free to send me a message ANY time. i am not a therapist, but it sounds like you could use a friend. And I swear, if I hear any mean remarks to this girl, I will hunt you down and you will pay.. She really needs help.